Embroidery, Updates

Like A Boss

Back when I managed Opa Coffee & Wine Bar, I had my bad ass team, who no matter how tired, how hungover, how whatever they could be, showed up through thick and thin and owned it like a boss.  I’ve always seemed to surround myself with badasses.  In the music scene, the craft community, and, now, in my very own home, badasses.  I’m lucky to know such amazing people.

Every now and then though, in the midst of working two part time jobs, renovating rooms, building gardens, vacuuming up after three dogs, doing dishes, and building a business, feeling like I can’t keep up is definitely a cloud that follows me around.  Sometimes, we can’t do it all.  Sometimes, we can.

I always opt for the later of the two previous statements.  I can do it all. Sometimes it’s a matter of putting everything on hold, taking a nap, and regrouping.  Other times, it’s just powering through.  This week, I took a little time to embroider.  There is nothing like stopping to stitch “#girlboss” for a couple of hours…. talk about meditating on your intention. IMG_0972.jpg

We all need to take time to tell ourselves that we are a boss.  We can keep persisting.  We can follow and live our dreams.  With that, I hope you take time today remind yourself of the same.  The girl boss in me bows to the girl boss in you.  Have a great day!

 

Before & After, Story

Finding Balance

I’ve been sitting at my computer for the last thirty minutes surfing the internet, Facebook, Pinterest, etc.

“Geez, there is something I need to be doing right now, but I can’t remember what it is.”

I know I have lots of work I need to do: updating menus, creating how-to guides, itineraries, checklists, blah, blah, blah.  I realize, now, thumbing through the pages of the web, that I need to take care of me.  I haven’t written something for me, you, a post in general, in weeks.  In fact, it’s been so long that I don’t really even care to check.

Don’t get me wrong, a promotion at work is always a good thing.  I’m thrilled to be working with wonderful people (I cannot stress that enough), a boss that cares about her business, employees, and that trusts me to do the right thing, and of course, a raise.  The thing that sucks me in the most is I have the opportunity to make a difference, like my furniture projects, I will leave it better than I found it.  The drawback is that I go head first with such gusto that I lose myself.

The not sleeping has started, my craft projects are collecting dust, my guitar.. ha!  I haven’t touched it since my last show.  Let me say this first: I am not complaining about work.  Nope. Not here.  What I am expressing is my disappointment with myself.  There needs to be balance: if I’m going to polish of a pint of ice cream, I need to do some yoga the next day; if I’m going to stay up late doing god knows what, I need to make sure I rest up somewhere; and if I’m going to throw myself into work 7 days a week, I need to schedule some time for me.

This initial workload will dissipate, but I can’t burn out before then.  I’ve been down this road before (flashbacks of working a 8-7/6 days a week in a windowless office, come to mind). Today marks the day that I will refocus and start balancing.  Okay, maybe not today as I am taking a break from steam cleaning the carpet in my apartment, but tomorrow.  Yes, tomorrow.  I have my music, my furniture, my embroidery, and more.  Thanks for listening and reading and your support.

Music, Uncategorized

Thoughtful and Thankful Thursday

The last few days of the first month of 2015 are rapidly approaching and I am thrilled with the amount of productivity that I have been able to maintain over these last few weeks.  Today though, I woke up with an overwhelming sense of gratitude.

I never in my wildest dreams thought I wanted to play music.  It just happened, but now, I realize that I couldn’t live without music.  I love to write, sing, play, and perform.  Like any field or art, there is constant room for improvement, growth, etc.  Yes, I am sure, that like any field or art, there are many moments of self doubt.  I feel as if I experience the later more than I should.

As an artist or a musician, each piece you create has a little bit of you in it.  You offer that openly to the world for the taking, the critique, as well as the rejection.  Sure, as an artist you should be able to remove yourself from that situation, but the reality is that you can’t.  It is difficult not to be personally involved and even more so not to take the negative personally.  I have tried very hard to avoid the negative.  I find myself to be my harshest critic, therefore I am often hesitant to share my work, in this case my songs.

This month, I forced myself in a way that I have never done before to share my music.  I submitted one of my songs to the Tiny Desk Concert Series Concert.  Now, we will completely overlook my strong dislike for contests anyway, and embrace the notion that I took a huge step.  I submitted my video to the NPR contest and was hesitant to let anyone else know that I had entered my video, but I overcame that too.  Since I have let go of this fear of sharing my work out of receiving negative feedback, I have received anything but that!  Nothing but good has come from it and it has proved to be a valuable lesson.

Now I have shared this video, the links and articles that it has been included in (by Ovrld and KUT Austin) all over Facebook but what I haven’t been able to mention, or at least communicate clearly enough is my overwhelming sense of gratitude to those that have liked, shared, and given me the support that I have needed!  I have always felt has if I have never fit in here in the Austin music scene, this week has proven otherwise and has given me the momentum I need to keep propelling myself forward.

Thank you to the following folks for sharing links, tagging me in posts, etc. I couldn’t feel this way without you. (There are many, many more of you, but this is the beginning)

Lisa Kettyle (Austin badass: barista, promoter, pedicabber, the list goes on)

Lee Jaster (fellow singer/songwriter)

Alexis Alexander (in need of ancupuncture? She’s your girl!)

Avi Hartman (badass welder- video was filmed in his warehouse)

Terri Lee (that adorable dress I’m wearing… hers!)

KUT Radio, Austin

Ovrld

*NOTE*- I realize the winner’s of the Tiny Desk Concert Contest won’t be announced until the end of February and I most likely won’t be one of them, but for now, I am feeling like a winner! Thanks ya’ll! (Yes, so cheesey, I’m sorry)

 

 

Uncategorized

Turning Up the Volume

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Ok, I missed posting last week… My apologies, I must say the guilt factor is high.  All it takes is missing one or two posts, the next thing you know it’ll be a year.  That being said, I’ve had a lot going on! I am super excited to announce that I have taken on a little bit of a new role in the music world.  Inspired by my friend Lisa Kettyle and her past experience with music venues, I have started doing some booking and sound at the Firehouse Lounge on Monday nights for the Avi & Friends Songwriter Showcase.

As someone who works seven days a week, I never, let me say this differently, never, get to get out and go see live music.  Booking Monday nights has been a great way, and yes, somewhat selfish of me, to see music I wouldn’t normally get to see. It has been getting me super motivated and inspired to write some new songs myself.  This coming week I am beyond elated to be playing with Ann Sauder, Grace Park of The Deer, and Amy Sue Berlin, who just released a brand new album.

Booking and doing sound doesn’t seem like much I realize, but it is so nice to get paid for something I love doing.  It seems like a step in the right direction.  I feel more connected to the music community in Austin than ever before.

Speaking of the music community, earlier in this post I mentioned my friend, Lisa, well, I can’t think of a better time to mention someone that is working her tail off to create a stronger music community.  Lisa is in the midst of raising funds to open her own music venue.  She needs our support! Check out her indieegogo campaign here: The Chestnut Theater

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Back to the Nest

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It has only been a week since I have quit my day job and already I have played my guitar more in the last three days than I have in the last year.  Although, a little rusty, it truly is like riding a bike.  It takes time for calluses to strengthen and  muscle memory to kick in, but the feeling I have from deep within my chest reassures me that this is right.  I missed playing music.

I knew a trip back home would be what the doctor ordered to build my confidence and my creativity again.  Now that the proverbial top is off, a part of me that I have held in for so long is coming out.

Stay tuned…