I’ve been sitting at my computer for the last thirty minutes surfing the internet, Facebook, Pinterest, etc.
“Geez, there is something I need to be doing right now, but I can’t remember what it is.”
I know I have lots of work I need to do: updating menus, creating how-to guides, itineraries, checklists, blah, blah, blah. I realize, now, thumbing through the pages of the web, that I need to take care of me. I haven’t written something for me, you, a post in general, in weeks. In fact, it’s been so long that I don’t really even care to check.
Don’t get me wrong, a promotion at work is always a good thing. I’m thrilled to be working with wonderful people (I cannot stress that enough), a boss that cares about her business, employees, and that trusts me to do the right thing, and of course, a raise. The thing that sucks me in the most is I have the opportunity to make a difference, like my furniture projects, I will leave it better than I found it. The drawback is that I go head first with such gusto that I lose myself.
The not sleeping has started, my craft projects are collecting dust, my guitar.. ha! I haven’t touched it since my last show. Let me say this first: I am not complaining about work. Nope. Not here. What I am expressing is my disappointment with myself. There needs to be balance: if I’m going to polish of a pint of ice cream, I need to do some yoga the next day; if I’m going to stay up late doing god knows what, I need to make sure I rest up somewhere; and if I’m going to throw myself into work 7 days a week, I need to schedule some time for me.
This initial workload will dissipate, but I can’t burn out before then. I’ve been down this road before (flashbacks of working a 8-7/6 days a week in a windowless office, come to mind). Today marks the day that I will refocus and start balancing. Okay, maybe not today as I am taking a break from steam cleaning the carpet in my apartment, but tomorrow. Yes, tomorrow. I have my music, my furniture, my embroidery, and more. Thanks for listening and reading and your support.